from the airplane into northdakota i surveyed the farms that stretched in a patchwork design over the flatest stretch of land imagineable.
during my flight, I was so tired and going in and mostly out of consciousness, that i responded to the German attendants with 'merci," and "teşekkürler,..." When I got off the plane i absentmindedly told the pilot and air hostesses "görüşürüz." (Turkish for see you later) It took me weeks to get comfortable even saying thankyou in turkish in the first place, but in the end it came from my sleepy subconscious default instinct.
my grandparents, my parents, and my brother were all there to meet me at the airport. laughs and lots of food ensued. sometimes they asked about egypt, whoops they mean turkey, but mostly we are all just in the present moment. singing impromptu songs about the heimlich maneuvre. Granny Flo and grama Vi really shone improving the verses.
I miss my kitty and wonder how she is doing at nights alone. I wish I could go for the brown bathrobe I left in Istanbul. and as i sip a glass of chilled wine and watch the shadows of the big maple trees cast across the green, green north dakota grass, I contemplate this force that separates me from the people i love. i love them so much, why must we separate? again and again. even the most special ones and I?
Love you!
Posted by: Pops | September 08, 2008 at 07:24 AM